by george this is sad...
i utterly completely dont feel like writing.
i'm forcing myself to write this now coz....i dunno
i kno i should do some writing and not feeling like it is not good or helping my situation but then its not my fault. i'm one of those people who are extremely prone to mood swings.only in my case one mood comes over me and envelopes me in its entirerity. so if a weird mood looms around the corner especially when in school its very uncomfortable and obviously weird. for like i cant act weird in school especially when LC is crapping about some shit which i dont get no matter how hard i try.
and i feel weird all the more coz i totally dont feel like sitting there right then.isnt that the second time i used totally?
i knew it...damn...god save me.i'm using the same goddamn word twice.
repetiton is bad.very bad.damn. i should do something about this.there i'm using damn too many times.this isnt fair.i've been in this dumb ping mood for quite a long time now.it doesnt seem to be budging either.
i wonder exactly how do you change your own mood?
arent moods instinctive and impulsive?
they are spur at moments notice unnoticed by anyone right?
so how can one change them?
but then the main problem is not the mood but the fact that i havent felt like writing so like months now.
MONTHS...
and i dont know wat to do other than crap and whine about it here.
but hey writing this is a step forward right?
wah how should i know?
its not fair.life's not fair.
obviously my mood doesnt seem like leaving even now for i can see that i'm not making even the tiniest bit of coherent thinking and its shown pretty well in my writing.
but i'm gonna do this for this is the first step and i have to do it anyway.
it takes courage to write shit and post it.
i like this quote:
courage isnt always a roar, most of the time its a tiny voice that
says i'll try again tommorow.
thank you i know its lovely coz its by me...